A battlefield of the Somme. Looking towards Adanac Military Cemetery, Miraumont, France. P. Ferguson image, September 2010.
…the soul…of this presentation that I steadily provide ink to? It must be more than the telling…it must resonate in the craft of words and images together…a bigger story than the one we obviously tell. How did we come to this session? One soldier in particular, connected to bronze, to the chanter, to history. Yet so many others walked and scrambled across this same ground…not recognized as such – as one young man.
Across the farmer’s fields where the cacophony of war sounded. Thiepval Memorial in the distance…the great stone echo of that chaos.
P. Ferguson image, September 2010.
And as I stumble towards finding my reasons for crafting my effort in the fashion I choose, I turn again to the score…the grid of phrase and passion. One simple search, “War and Cello”. It is in the asking I find a link to my over-arching idea…to my words beginning and end…and why I choose to focus this day – you are there with him.
Evermore…those who walked and scrambled this ground. Canadian, British and Australian soldiers…our heart…our soul. How many came home?
This story is of those others…the stories not so easily found, bleached with time, yet we make them walk here again. This is a new pilgrimage not the one in focus but those to the side. The others on the memorial from the same battles and from across our communities. Digging and asking a little deeper, finding the phrase…the heart…the soul that makes their story (the others) of equal conversation to the well known…they (the others) being the seldom known of the beginning and of the end…evermore.
The Darkest Cello Music – Beginning to End. Aimee Norris.
In memory of one of the others… Private Harry Ayres…47th Canadian Infantry Battalion Killed in Action…Regina Trench 11 November 1916 Commemorated on the Vimy Memorial, France
A few lines from Harry’s letter to his wife Carrie
A blazier fire at twilight, A thousand stars ashine, A searchlight sweeping Heaven. About the firing line. The rifle bullet whistles, The message that it brings, Of death and desolation To common folks and Kings. A sentry at his station, Upon the trenches rim Has thoughts that draw souls nearer And you are there with him
(Harry Ayres, Chilliwack Progress, 7 December 1916, page 1)
One day at a time…our little Christmas tree… (P. Ferguson image, December 2022)
…For Rosemary and her brothers
The tree this year may be small but shines no less brightly. There may be one less this day at our table but somehow we will find the way. It’s a new road now but one we all travel.
Beside the tree a solitary Christmas penguin. To the other side a dish carrying ceramic bear waiting days now for the single chocolate to disappear. Wantmore and friends are about – scampering to the tree…fretting – it’s different these days. The family they know are about, but quiet. It’s not like them. Wantmore and his family enjoy the lights – bright colours – but no crumb bits are about these festive days. The mice-kin understand.
And when the tree lights come on at night and the music plays behind…all know what we are thinking…in hope…that a single chocolate will disappear by morning.
An Irish Rose…Margaret Mary Audrey May (nee McManus) 12 June 1926 – 22 December 2022
Poppies at Victoria’s cenotaph. P. Ferguson image, 11 November 2022.
In anticipation of this Remembrance day, I prepare to find my place and take witness of today’s gathering. Those here are younger ones now and those I once knew have found shelters away from this earthly domain. Increasingly I am part of an older generation connected only to past voices. Today I feel an old lion…the roar not as deep and my stance not as firm.
Lion at Menin Gate Memorial. Ieper (Ypres), Belgium. P. Ferguson image, September 2004.
This was to have been a day when images and words were to flow easily from the colour instances of remembrance. Reds and blacks, the grace of carried flags and those at half-mast. Yet the pictures were not easily found nor the words did carry and I was left consumed by the where-ness. Where were the pictures? Where were the words?
Menin Gate Memorial lion. Postcard.
I had started earlier than today. Some weeks back I found words and song, the shoulder of Orion…until the stars are all alright. And though I came back to these passages often, I recognize that the whole of them was not for today but only their fragments. And then, only then, later this night I found, from an unlikely moon, the voice of an old lion…never too old to roar or to stride.
Thiepval Anglo-French Cemetery. Continue to find past voices. P. Ferguson image, August 2018.
I will continue to find these past voices to place them with images and words. To walk in or beside the steps of others, To read their names, to accept their clues. I have heard their voices to continue…Though I too have become an old lion, grey at my temple and at my jaw – I have spoken with the tongue of angels…finding courage and meaning when I walk in their path.
Walk in their path. “My Boy! A mother reaches journey’s end at last”. The Optomist, June 1930. Commonwealth War Graves Commission. Personal visit, November 2019.
Crows amidst the waters. P. Ferguson image. October 2022.
Or Not…
I cannot pretend a specialist knowledge of the crow. True said crow has a purposed gait. A gentle hop or strut seems oft-more style dependent on the current need or then again, perhaps, for flight. Crows enjoy the gather to keep warm, to share news of the day…there is food here…there is no food there…and have you heard of our dear crow friend…
A restful gathering in which to share news of the day. P. Ferguson image. October 2022.
Some, would say the shortest distance between point a and point b is a straight line…known too as the crow flies. I stumble with the latter for as the crow flies implies that said flighted one knows its distance, able to let go of distractions…I consider this not to reflect truth over long distance. However, if one considers the crow to be a determined species of short hops to a specific point, I concede. That it knows its way from Paris to Brussels without departures…the crow does not…the crow will take its time…it will rest.
Amidst the square for crow banter. P. Ferguson image. October 2022.
But of one thing I do know. Crows can remind me…to be playful as in a recent happened-upon gathering of these feathered ones settled within a water feature. There they were…they did not pose…perhaps a dozen or more…set upon their advantages watching ones and others…as each took their turn to refresh. To cool their crow feet and feathers, bills within gentle rippling water as the fountain poured its calm natures across its slope to the plain and as geysers simmered to rise as columns of surprise.
Crow cousins of Ploegsteert. P. Ferguson image. September 2016.
Here these crows brought memory. Once again crows brought dear reader…dear writer…taking me specially to their cousins of Flanders who in their ways provided their cantor at Ploegsteert, laughter at Mesen, and their dance to the Groete Marke amidst the bells. Their ways are reminders of my somewhere in Belgium… 2016…Now time to rest before a return to the dance…to a similar gait…as the crow flies or not…enjoying the departures from the trail.
Solitary crow on the Ramparts (Ieper), Belgium. P. Ferguson image. September 2016.
I found the track…it has been a long while. P. Ferguson image, September 2022.
I Count Everything…
…sidewalk squares as I walk, telephone poles as I ride and especially strides (distance). It’s just something I do – not a fixation but some form of personal mind accounting. Maybe it’s simpler than that…I am able to count…thanks to teachers! One, two, three, four…100 and over again.
Numbers…and so I count. P. Ferguson image. August 2022.
The day I write of…I found the track…it has been a long while. After a stretch, I walk the first lap of the inside lane. The track feels, again, comfortable to the step, my legs and to the systems within. All engines are firing…perhaps a bit rough but I have been sensing this return for a bit. On my way here I was anxious, yearning…the desire for one more try…I am ready…it has been a long while.
Mural at the track…walk, run…here beside me. P. Ferguson image. September 2022.
Sole [soul] to oval – after once around I start, a gentle gait, a bit more than a walk, a little less then a run. Perhaps this is a jog? I am not here to overdo – this is part of take the lane, the oval, any sports field (2022-September-5). Though I amble for myself – those I have come here to remember may be here beside me. Not physically, not ghostly but in the pursuit of excellence – just once around is all “we” ask. You can only do your best and so I count…One, two, three, four to 86 and slow to a walk…I stop counting…then the legs find the pace again 87, 88, 89 to 120 and I have my lap. You can only ever do your best…today I have done mine…and I will count again.
1972 Munich Olympics souvenir. P. Ferguson image. August 2022.
Porcelain and Rubber. Between 5 and 6.
You’re taking up the track for that? the uninterested voice asked.
Why the Track?
The day’s plan…a return so to speak to UVIC’s Centennial Stadium. In my steps I ask when did I last run here…though my joy at that time was distance…up and over Mt. Tolmie to the other side. Today though I need symbolic background, connection to summer sports, participation with intended and implied connection. Something extant in 1972…perhaps a reckoning…a place of gathering – not of the event but a cousin to sports. The image…to be much more than pretty pictures, more than landscapes, more than a plate in a curio at home. Olympiad XX (August 26 – September 11) takes this writer to 1972…and that one picture…embedded for all time…a solo masked man of the Munich Massacre (September 5-6).
Embedded for all time…The Daily Colonist, September 6, 1972.
For some while I waited to re-watch Spielberg’s Munich (2005)…and in the watching I become reminded it is near 50 years. Perhaps remiss of me to take my words to a new vista away from the tragedy to words written of the film Munich and its representations. One finds Munich’s ending with its twin towers too punctuating to let go. More embedded images…every generation will have them. What scenes lurk these days within our lives that perpetually remind us of the horror, the horror. We cannot escape the river.
New York souvenir. Reminiscent of Spielberg’s end-piece in Munich. P. Ferguson image. August 2022.
At the Track
I set the plate, its blues between 5 and 6 against the rubber granules of the track. Circular shaped porcelain amidst white lines and numbers. Munich was a summer Olympics. Centennial Stadium five years old in 1972…a new school year…one wonders of the thoughts shared in the theatres, classrooms, recreation areas and over burgers with fries in the student buildings. There was much sports to share… the Canada-Russia Hockey series (September 2-28, 1972)…and Munich…Olympian Mark Spitz’s seven gold medals, the Canadian medalists in swimming and sailing – one bronze medal recipient being sailor Paul Coté co-founder of Greenpeace.
Lanes symbolic as two days in September. P. Ferguson image. August 2022.
So how much of the track do I need? Just this piece – but then again, with this day’s wander, I encourage anyone to take the oval, the lane, the floor or any other sports venue for one second of reflection. Fifty years ago – 121 nations – September 5 and 6…Munich…eleven hostages…they’re all gone. (Jim McKay, ABC Sports)…up and over to the other side.
Hurdlers sculpture….Take the oval…the lane…the floor… P. Ferguson image. September 2022.
Of all the tunes to find our way…of all the pics to find – one image…sunshine…help to light my way…
Soon your birthday…no way to be…no way to be…no way to sit with you…no way to make you laugh…to make you smile. But there is one word – we found again the other day…our word…imagine…right before our eyes…
Sunshine 5583 P. Ferguson image. August 2022.
Each day we a little older…each day…your’re the light I never found and it’s alright. So – this while…while we wait…while we wait to be at one’s side once again…what to do…what to do…bring a little sun…but its alright…
Every single day…when you came along…Sunshine…Happy Birthday Rosemary…easy lovin’ you…
Sunshine 5612 P. Ferguson image. August 2022.
Me
Sorry I won’t be there for your birthday…
You
…it’s alright…
Sunshine
Sunshine, every single day Helps to light my way And darlin’, right before my eyes It don’t come as no surprise That it’s easy Easy lovin’ you
And baby, ’til you came along There was always something wrong Around me There was emptiness of course But it’s alright And it’s easy Easy lovin’ you
And sunshine, having you around You’re the light I never found And darlin’, every minute you’re away But it’s brighter And it’s easy Easy lovin’ you
In my presence the steel rule plummets to the tiled floor of criss-crossed ceramic and grout – the rule’s edges crashing upon the two colour pattern conjures a zenith of endless Zildjian cymbals rising in multiple shimmers all caught within an empty room of echo. My tranquil domain shattered – the timbre vibrates to the core. I am un-wantedly caught within the coruscate. My person has gone over the falls.
Over the falls. Bobby Leach survived his trip over Niagara Falls, 25 July 1911. Wiki Image
Yet at the same time I absorb the episode – I will find something to counter experience this to. The core will recover and the day will continue – but this many seconds event has provided cause. What can be the possible resultant effect?
A few days later I traipse the sand watching as groups of steady hoppers bounce upwards from the salty environs. To the end I march and to the beginning I return. I watch the ground for broken bits of sea caressed glass – shattered remains of sea life – and take plastics away to the bin.
Feeding Heron. P. Ferguson image, July 2022.
Within the foreshore and unconcerned by my wander stands a Heron ever intent on its quest for feed. It remains steady – endless hours of practice – its grace of movement as if a profound practitioner of T’ai-chi ch’aün. I can watch this motion – there is something to learn here about life – tranquility – rice paper. With its spiked lunge towards a target the Heron finds its meal and returns to its stance easily.
Leaving the tranquility of the foreshore. P. Ferguson image, July 2022.
The movement repeats itself. It is time for me to go. I have recovered from my over the falls event. I have enjoyed cause and effect – chaos and peace. The heron spreads its wings.
Turtles at Beacon Hill Park. Turtles 6 – Ducks 0. P. Ferguson image, May 2022
What have I done?
The other day…dear me…there upon the calendar was World Turtle Day (May 23) sponsored by the American Tortoise Rescue. Strange, this coincidence, as I was considering this very topic – one of an aged tortoise I had recently encountered. Desperately I appealed to hare self in the all encompassing knowledge that I must, write this day. But other appointments – a race against the clock…the Hare and Tortoise sprint is on.
Aboard the turtle beam at Beacon Hill Park. P. Ferguson image, May 2022
At the time I was in the initial planning stages not realizing the significant day was already upon self. With model tortoise (named Rocket) in hand, camera in the other…the subject comes up on the trail. Did I know?…No I did not know!…good grief…the sprint is on. And like the hare on this late afternoon of much to do, I am this way and that as turtles and tortoises become my latent priority. Thankfully tortoise self will appear and I allow myself to watch the sun drop down and the moon rise to its nightly perch. The race is won even when one does not first cross the line.
Turtles at Honolulu Zoo. P. Ferguson image, August 2006
During the sprint though I find myself unable to locate the images I know I have taken many times (somewhere-somewhere-somewhere). Of turtles basking in competition with ducks on their floating log dock at Beacon Hill Park. Sometimes I keep score Turtles 3 – Ducks 4. I enjoy the pandemonium of duck quackery, the turtle crawl to their landing or as they slide into the water as the dock turns a slight gentle roll. Gravity claims them…slip…ker-sploosh! It happens like their transcendent wisdom seemingly in slow motion. Score Turtles 2 – Ducks 4.
For two days the sun hides behind the counter-battle of grey skies and clouds teasing a fantastical but never occurring downpour. But hare self has left this room the tortoise is at the reigns…all in good time, the sun will return as I begin to ponder turtle and tortoise shell beings that I have encountered.
Turtles basking at the Honolulu Zoo. P. Ferguson image, July 2010
In Montreal my turtle pets were held in an oval clear plastic bowl (a purpose built turtle home) with water, food of some kind, another plastic mass for the small turtle to lie upon beneath a plastic green leafed, brown trunk plastic palm tree. The first large turtle I saw was of the snapping variety brought to the Canadian recreation centre in the Poetto, Sardinia. So too batches of turtles on other log docks near Kelowna, Victoria or at the Honolulu Zoo. And those grand beings, living symbols of longevity, safety, mana, good luck and peace…the sea grass and algae munchers of the reef – Honu at Hanuama Bay or those I shared the current with off the breakwater at Waikiki.
Found amongst my images…a Tortoise with great purpose at Honolulu Zoo. P. Ferguson image, August 2006
But it is another free range shelled being, a tortoise, that was the impetus for my initial thoughts of turtles and tortoises. One that walked its gentle gait on a gentle incline when two of us happened upon its wanderings, while we followed a trail leaving Gully Ravine, Gallipoli, Turkey. How I wish I had stills of this Gallipoli wanderer. It is this tortoise that started my initial thoughts about Timothy a Royal Navy tortoise mascot.
HMS Queen leaving Malta. Painting by Robert Strickland Thomas, 1842 Wiki image via Bonhams, London
Timothy, whose gender was later learned to be female, was believed to have been born on a Mediterranean shore of the Ottoman Empire (modern-day Turkey). In 1854, Timothy, about 10 years of age, was removed from a Portuguese privateer by Captain John Guy Courtenay-Everard of the Royal Navy. Service aboard Captain Courtenay-Everard’s ship was eventful and Timothy was at the Bombardment of Sevastopol and served on other ships of the Royal Navy until 1892 when discharged ashore. Taken in by the Earl of Devon (family name Courtenay), Timothy remained on this earthly plain until 3 April 2004, aged about 160. Timothy was the last survivor of the Crimea War.
Timothy. Mascot aboard H.M.S. Queen. Last survivor of the Crimea War 1854-1856. Wiki image. Picture by Jeanette.
Timothy’s final years were spent in the rose garden of the Earl of Devon at Powderham Castle. Timothy was later cared for by Camilla Gabriella Courtenay (1913-2010) the daughter of the 16th Earl of Devon. It is recorded that on Timothy’s underside were the etched English words Where have I fallen? What have I done?, the English translation of the Courtenay family’s Latin motto.
Rocket on the trail…Remembering my wanderer friends and the wisdom they have encountered, P. Ferguson image, May 2022